A writer's guide to internalizing and over-analyzing

I started writing this post last night,a bit drunk admittedly, but while the mind is mightier than the hand, as my grandma used to say every time I was too tired or lazy to do my homework, my body refused to cooperate and so I gave up and fell asleep. Before my sleepiness got the best of me, I was having a discussion with a friend, about feelings and how they are often affected by other people or circumstances, in the sense that we may be influenced or deceived by outside factors into feeling a certain way, while our mind itself can also trick us into over-analysing what may not in reality even exist. This morning, with a slightly clearer head, I realised that the whole dialogue itself was highly suggestive, making us both rethink and re-evaluate our life's stories even as we are living them . We tried to keep it light by using remote generalizations but in the end we knew exactly what personal experiences we were referring to without ever disclosing them to one another. And it is odd to think that although talking about the same subject we each had something completely different in mind. And what were to happen if the esoteric became prone to the power of suggestion? When you start analysing random details that you know won't change the true outcome of a situation and in fact may forever remain inexplicable? And when engaged in the same conversation you are missing the point because you are, in that moment, obsessively internalising? The conclusion I came to draw was the exact opposite of what I had expected and it is this: despite being influenced by the outside world, deep down your true emotions have already been known, even if you are not fully aware of them.You can't hide the way you feel, you can't justify or explain it. You can't change it or bury it. Whether it is how you feel about another person or say your job, your life and even your financial situation, your feelings are present and generally are yours alone to deal with. Every time you talk about it, ask for advice and opinion(which can be a good way to get things of your chest, or utterly catastrophic if you are easily swayed) what you are subconsciously hoping is to get the answer you already know, the "ok" to feel how you feel.  Telling someone you love them,for instance, should hold its value to you never mind their response as it is of little significance.The other person saying it back won't change the way you feel. Lashing out on someone about something that has nothing to do with them(and you know it) resembles a deranged cry for help. Being dependent on someone's words or actions, defining your emotions based on somebody else's just makes no sense. Perhaps though it is our own indecisiveness, our personal fear of rejection and our need to play it safe, that make it simpler to rely on someone else for the answers.